I Quit My Day Job.
I haven't been around for months, and I've been missing this blog. I've been missing art. I've been missing feeling like myself.
Instead, I had been waking up every day, going to a job I had begun to hate, feeling exhausted at the end of each work day, too tired to make art or have a creative thought... I wasn't feeling like myself. I felt like a zombie whose only functions were to work, watch tv, eat, sleep, repeat. I needed to wake up.
So I finally got brave enough to do what I had been wanting to muster up the courage to do for at least a year: I put in my two weeks' notice, and I left my day job.
I made up a budget. I have a plan. I have so many goals and creative dreams; I feel like I am bursting at the seams. I can't wait to get started on this new phase of my life, and I hope you will be here to join me in the excitement!
Right now, the initial plan is to eBay a bunch of my collectibles while I get things going with my art and decide what direction to go in. I have a LOT of collectibles. I was a weird kid and collected vintage stuff since early childhood. Going to flea markets was a favorite past time, and now it is going to pay off. In the meantime, I will formulate some concrete goals on the creative front and hope that eventually creativity can start paying the bills... I know it this is a lofty goal and will be a huge endeavor, but I'm willing to put in the time and the work. I couldn't spend another day wasting away at a job that wasn't inspiring me.
I'm sorry for the lack of posts in the last few months, but honestly, I was so wrapped up in my job and the stress of dissatisfaction that I couldn't bring myself to post. How could I have written about making art when I wasn't making any? But now things are different...
I've only been working for myself for a week, but I've made a ton of paintings, organized the studio, and am working on new t-shirt designs and products for my shop. I'm feeling more productive and happy than I have in ages. Sometimes I still doubt myself and worry that leaving my steady paycheck was a mistake, but I am beginning to feel whole again and wholly myself, and that is worth more than any hourly wage.