Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I Quit My Day Job.


I haven't been around for months, and I've been missing this blog. I've been missing art. I've been missing feeling like myself.

Instead, I had been waking up every day, going to a job I had begun to hate, feeling exhausted at the end of each work day, too tired to make art or have a creative thought... I wasn't feeling like myself. I felt like a zombie whose only functions were to work, watch tv, eat, sleep, repeat. I needed to wake up.

So I finally got brave enough to do what I had been wanting to muster up the courage to do for at least a year: I put in my two weeks' notice, and I left my day job.

I made up a budget. I have a plan. I have so many goals and creative dreams; I feel like I am bursting at the seams. I can't wait to get started on this new phase of my life, and I hope you will be here to join me in the excitement!

Right now, the initial plan is to eBay a bunch of my collectibles while I get things going with my art and decide what direction to go in. I have a LOT of collectibles. I was a weird kid and collected vintage stuff since early childhood. Going to flea markets was a favorite past time, and now it is going to pay off. In the meantime, I will formulate some concrete goals on the creative front and hope that eventually creativity can start paying the bills... I know it this is a lofty goal and will be a huge endeavor, but I'm willing to put in the time and the work. I couldn't spend another day wasting away at a job that wasn't inspiring me.

I'm sorry for the lack of posts in the last few months, but honestly, I was so wrapped up in my job and the stress of dissatisfaction that I couldn't bring myself to post. How could I have written about making art when I wasn't making any? But now things are different...

I've only been working for myself for a week, but I've made a ton of paintings, organized the studio, and am working on new t-shirt designs and products for my shop. I'm feeling more productive and happy than I have in ages. Sometimes I still doubt myself and worry that leaving my steady paycheck was a mistake, but I am beginning to feel whole again and wholly myself, and that is worth more than any hourly wage.

6 comments:

  1. i miss art too, too much work

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  2. This is amazing. I'm so proud of you and I cannot wait to see all the wonderful art you are making!! Good luck and post often!! :)

    xoxo

    MacKensie

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  4. Congratulations on taking that first step. Brave decisions reap deserved rewards. Good luck to you!

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  5. Good for you! I would love to have a career primarily in art, but with all of my medical bills that's not really an option for me. For the time being, I still manage to do both and be a mommy of a 2-year old girl. A lot of household chores, like laundry, get pushed to the side a LOT, but I need that time to myself to craft and do my art. I know what you mean about not feeling "whole" and missing that part of yourself if you don't do your artwork.

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  6. I've already told you congratulations and how proud I am of you, but why not say it here as well?? Wishing you the best in everything, lady.

    AND - that rainbow colored girl is KILLER!!!

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